Daniella Bartfeld (b. 1974) is the founding director of the Aliyah Organization Zionist diplomatic project. Daniella Bartfeld is a Swedish-Israeli Zionist diplomatic blogger with focus on affecting regional change in the Middle East through influencing international diplomatic action. Daniella moved to Israel in 1994, formally made Aliyah (immigrated to Israel) in 1995 and returned to Sweden in 1997. Daniella’s dream is to move back to Israel, yet has effectively been unable to do so due to disability.
Daniella is endowed with prodigious abilities in the six following areas: 1) extraordinarily advanced problem-solving skills which usually function in an intuitive and instant fashion (the eureka effect), 2) extreme ability for intellectually understanding how others think, 3) sophisticated ability for seeing the gigantic (not just “the big”) picture in everything that interests her, 4) being able to quickly find the needle in the haystack so to speak, i.e. rapidly identifying what is absolutely pivotal to the question at hand whether from existing data or by innovation, 5) especially advanced perceptive logical (specifically non-logocentric) radar in detecting logic in seemingly non-logical contexts, 6) superior perspective-taking capability and 7) advanced connecting of dots outside any and all paradigms without being a trained specialist. These abilities are fully integrated with each other and effectively function as one superability. However, it is uncertain how operational they are without hyperfocus.
Due to her advanced psychological skills, Daniella as a diplomatic blogger is uniquely politically influential for a private citizen in the world of diplomacy and has been so since 2002. Daniella’s daily writings are carefully monitored by governments around the world. As someone often influential in shaping diplomacy and particularly so pertaining to the Middle East, Daniella always makes instant intuitive decisions about what to write and her decisions never turn out wrong. although there are sometimes inadvertent consequences in real life. Daniella discovered core Median Judaism c. 2002 and managed to prove and document it in the period of 2014-2016 and this is now known to all governments although not yet to the general public. Daniella has a long history of advocacy for the Kurdistani-Israeli-American triangular relationship as an independent Kurdistan (in parts of Kurdistan) has been a key objective of Israeli regional policy since 1958.
While Daniella applies her advanced cognitive skills mainly in the realm of diplomatic advocacy, her abilities can be applied in any field of knowledge that she is familiar with and personally interested in – she does not need to be an expert. Daniella personally thinks that it is really a shame that her advanced abilities are not put to use in yet further fields than diplomatic advocacy since her extreme talent really is not limited to the realm of diplomatic advocacy. Daniella hopes that in the future she would collaboratively help scientists and intelligence scientists resolve ostensibly “irresoluble” scientific problems that they themselves are currently unable to resolve.
What could Daniella attain outside of diplomatic advocacy and helping scientists and intelligence scientists resolve ostensibly “irresoluble” problems? Considering Daniella’s extremely impressive achievements in diplomatic advocacy, Daniella’s mind really is a human black box and Daniella might even have further latent prodigious abilities than the aforementioned seven prodigious abilities. There is really no question that Daniella’s prodigious skills could be put to much better use in further fields. What is required for Daniella becoming able to resolve advanced problems in yet further fields of knowledge? The fundamental requirement is Daniella becoming interested in the subject matter at hand and so proactively stimulating Daniella into becoming so is thus necessary before she can resolve such ostensibly irresoluble problems unless of course she is already interested. Daniella has a dialogical “chavruta” (dialogical study) personality in the sense that dialogue with others helps her resolve difficult problems. Daniella relies on dialogue with others to move forward in her intellectual processes. Why is this so? Daniella picks up on clues and she finds clues in arguments of others. Similarly, she surfs the internet looking for clues for her various intellectual ventures. However, sometimes in the absence of someone to dialogue with, she has been able to dialogue with herself by talking to herself in finding clues in her own arguments.
What are the genetic and familial origins of Daniella’s unique abilities? Daniella has seen a family photograph which included her Yiddish-speaking Austro-Hungarian paternal grandfather (born 1892 near Chernivtsi, present Ukraine) dressed in military uniform with his chest filled with Austro-Hungarian imperial/royal orders (grand stars, German: Bruststern), yet with no military medals. Daniella’s father told Daniella that her paternal grandfather was decorated by the emperor of Austria-Hungary. Daniella’s own particularly advanced cognitive abilities, the multiple imperial/royal orders, the military uniform and the absence of military medals strongly suggest that he was an intelligence world hereditary genius and senior official during WWI in the Evidenzbureau (Austro-Hungarian military intelligence) or the Staatspolizei (Austro-Hungarian domestic intelligence). Furthermore, Daniella has an Israeli cousin (a son of the sister of Daniella’s father) who is an apparent genius and senior corporate executive in Silicon Valley. Furthermore, Daniella’s father despite being a polyglot who spoke seven languages fluently was certainly not a genius or at least did not develop into one. When in contact with senior Israeli intelligence officials many years ago, they did not seem particularly surprised at Daniella’s genius as Daniella’s paternal grandfather undoubtedly began working for Israeli intelligence after immigrating to Israel upon the founding of the state in 1948. No one in Daniella’s family told her about her grandfather’s profession in Israel. Daniella’s paternal grandfather died in Israel with the three citizenships of Austria, Romania and Israel and retained Austrian citizenship despite living in Romania after the dissolution of Austria-Hungary.
There are three biological origins of genius, those are 1) exceptionally high intelligence 2) clinical and subclinical instances of genetic disorders such as autism and bipolar disorder and 3) hereditary genius such as evidenced by the Bach and Rothschild dynasties.
Daniella is diagnosed with (high-functioning) autism, severe ADHD, (managed, medicated and symptom-free) schizoaffective disorder (an intermediary condition between bipolar disorder and schizophrenia), gender dysphoria, (still unmedicated) unspecified sleeping disorder with narcolepsy and insomnia as well as medicated phobias for intercourse, female body hair and kissing. There is no indication that Daniella’s prodigious abilities are derived from any of her diagnosed conditions. Why is this so? While some of Daniella’s prodigious skills could hypothetically be associated with autism and ADHD, the others are not and this certainly does not account for the exceptionally high and even level of all Daniella’s extremely advanced cognitive skills which strongly suggests an X factor, namely hereditary genius which indeed also appears to be present in Daniella’s family.
Daniella has the full spectrum of cognitive advantages (12 traits, as described by Anders Hansen 2017) that are associated with ADHD: Takes initiatives prolifically, is a force of nature and gets things done, is creative and thinks outside the box, is energetic with unlimited energy [on things that she is hyperfocused on], is fearless and pursues new ideas, is curious, is flexible, is good at hyperfocus, is persistent and does not give up, is intuitive and questioning, is excellent at lateral thinking [i.e. views things from new perspectives] and is not deterred by setbacks and adversity.
Daniella has the full range of cognitive advantages associated with high-functioning autism (12 traits, as described by Harriet Cannon 2018). Daniella thus has attention to detail (thoroughness & accuracy), deep focus (concentration & freedom from distraction), observational skills (listen, look, learn approach & fact finding), absorbs and retains facts (excellent long term memory & superior recall), visual skills (visual learning and recall & detail-focused), expertise (in-depth knowledge & high level of skills), methodical approach (analytical & spotting patterns, repetitions), novel approaches (unique thought processes & innovative solutions), creativity (distinctive imagination & expression of ideas), tenacity and resilience (determination & challenges opinions), accepting of difference (less likely to judge others & may question norms) and integrity (honesty, loyalty & commitment).
When Daniella was fifteen years old she held a public lecture about schools not adhering to the legislated Swedish curriculum (then Lgr 80) to a packed local public auditorium after receiving extensive publicity in the local media.
Why does Daniella want to return to Israel? As a Zionist does Daniella strongly believe that all Jews should live in Israel. Daniella feels complete as a person in Israel and she is eager to reproduce and form a family there as she feels ashamed for not having children despite being a hereditary genius. In practice would it be difficult for Daniella to permanently return to Israel without first finding employment in the intelligence sector where she would be able to greatly contribute thanks to her exceptional hereditary genius. When she lived in Israel in the period of 1994-97 everything was arranged for her by the Jewish Agency and other bodies. It would also be difficult for Daniella to now settle in Israel as a single person considering her disabilities. Daniella wants to contribute more and although she significantly does help strengthen Israeli national interests from Sweden through her extremely effective diplomatic advocacy, there is in fact much more that Daniella can do to contribute to the Israeli national effort, including also in her diplomatic advocacy.
Daniella is a human chameleon in her diplomatic advocacy as she effectively “switches nationality” as of need. Daniella adopts the interests of the government that she is focused on and argues passionately and innovatively for its own interests from its own perspectives. Of course this is about combining interests of more than one government, including usually Israel, but this is the essence of diplomacy. It has been argued by scientists that perspective-taking is impaired in autistics but in Daniella is perspective-taking particularly advanced to the degree that Daniella creeps into the skin of other ethnic groups, cultures, civilizations, nations, states and religions.
As a teenager did Daniella study language geography and is therefore highly knowledgeable not only about the geographic distribution of languages worldwide (with at the time a special interest in African languages) but is also familiar with intersecting issues such as religion, ethnicity, political history, demography and political geography. Daniella has photographic memory for maps, including language maps and topographic maps. Daniella is however specialized in at depth understanding of the Middle East.
Daniella is goal-oriented, persistent, does not give up and is exceptionally and extremely successful in her diplomatic advocacy. How does Daniella’s diplomatic influence work? All nations have intelligence agencies and an important task for intelligence agencies is to gather all kinds of relevant information online that governments ultimately may find useful in condensed form. This certainly includes reading material that is important for devising foreign policy. Daniella’s articles are read directly after being published and are screened for relevance by intelligence monitors. Articles that are deemed relevant are relayed to diplomats and decision makers who at least in the United States make decisions whether to change policy within a day, something which Daniella usually finds out about through the Israeli online English-language media. In the past Daniella did not understand how her diplomatic influence worked and she descended into megalomania leading to psychotic episodes on several occasions in the past two decades.
What are Daniella secrets in being so extremely influential? First, she does not merely think out of the box but out of the paradigms, second she is skilled at innovatively and creatively identifying and articulating national interests in groundbreaking ways, third she is extremely persuasive in arguing on the addressee’s own terms, fourth she fully deploys her six prodigious skills and fifth she uses her many autistic and ADHD superpowers to the full extent.
Daniella scored 1.8 on SweSAT (Swedish Scholastic Aptitude Test, officially known in Swedish as “Högskoleprovet”) and did not reach the maximum 2.0 due to completely failing the diagram section. The national average test score on SweSAT is 0.9. When she was being tested for IQ while being being diagnosed for autism she was not informed that there was a time limit for the test and that it was actually an intelligence test and so took great interest in questions that she could not resolve, with great focus and with no haste at all and therefore received what the administering psychologist described as a “low score” due to not completing the test. Scholastic Aptitude Tests (SATs) mostly measure IQ (to a degree of 75%) and a SweSAT score of 1.8 would likely be either MENSA-level or close to it since only 2,2% of test participants receive a test score of 1.8 or higher and this is particularly so considering that most students with lower IQs don’t take SATs simply due to not being interested in higher studies.
How does Daniella feel about her life? Daniella has long since attained her dream of becoming a neoconservative intellectual in frequently influencing US foreign policy under all US presidential administrations since 2002 and sometimes also the foreign policies of other governments as well. She has thus attained self-actualization to an unusual degree. Yet, she is far from satisfied, because she feels that she is intellectually underchallenged as typically only a small fraction of her wake time is spent on diplomatic advocacy. Daniella feels that most of her wake time is going to waste when there is so much more that she could contribute in terms of intellectual innovation/exploration/adaptation. Yet Daniella has so far proven unable to realize her other dreams of returning to Israel and forming a Jewish family due to her various disabilities. What about her political initiatives? Those have mostly become implemented although her vision of returning Median Jewry to Israel of course is the great challenge awaiting Zionism and Israel.
Both Daniella’s parents developed autistic traits (in both cases communication deficits) leading to clinical ASD in Daniella. In the case of Daniella’s father were the communication deficits leading to misunderstandings so severe that he most likely would have qualified for an autism diagnosis. Daniella’s father was a law-abiding intelligent psychopath but his psychopathy was substantially ameliorated by his autism to the effect that he was never exploitative or intentionally mean although in effect impossible to live with and of course a terrible parent although at the same time a very nice person. However, it may sound paradoxical but considering that he was a psychopath Daniella’s father’s personality due to the autism was rather benign.
There are three types of ADHD: 1) Hyperactive and impulsive type ADHD, 2) Inattentive type ADHD and 3) Combined type ADHD. Daniella belongs to the second type, formerly known as ADD which is characterized by concentration problems, i.e. when she is not hyperfocused. Daniella has autism level 1 which is the most high-functioning of the three levels of ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). ASD level 1 was (along with level 2) until 2013 formerly officially known as Asperger syndrome. Level 3 constitutes those autistic persons who have intellectual disabilities, formerly known as “mentally retarded”. Daniella’s disabilities are invisible and Daniella seems completely normal aside from being extremely open and highly verbal with much to tell, something which most people find interesting and stimulating.
Daniella’s thinking is not only outside the box but is typically characterized by being entirely outside any and all paradigms. Daniella is somewhat critical of academia in the sense that there you are not only expected to think in terms of paradigms but also be a footnote epigone. Daniella considers this obsession with excessively quoting others mere socially accepted plagiarism and being expressive of lack of original thinking. Daniella believes that highly creative people should be encouraged to become scientific scholars as this would dramatically increase the quality of scientific output. Daniella herself has encyclopedic memory for pivotal details due to her autism and has as an adult mostly derived her knowledge from the Internet since she is distracted by the fibers in the paper in many printed books due to her ADHD. Writing footnotes never worked for Daniella since she connects the dots from distant memory and this disability/skill is apparently due to a deficit/surplus in her executive function which is either because of her autism or her ADHD or both. Another way of putting this is that Daniella simply connects (or processes) pieces of information in a different way than neurotypicals. Daniella has learned to exclusively focus on those skills in which she excels and strictly avoid those functions in which she is impaired. Concentration problems in ADHD have been described as there being only things that are interesting and things that are not interesting with no gray zone in between and that is certainly so for Daniella which makes her filter out everything deemed irrelevant. This makes it almost impossible for Daniella to read something that she does not find interesting which in practice created insurmountable problems for her while a university student.
One of the main underlying dysfunctions in autism is deficit in Theory of Mind (ToM), as ToM produces cognitive empathy. Autistic people generally have highly individually unique (idiosyncratic) ToMs and better ToM abilities in autistic persons correlate with higher IQ in suggesting that the higher IQ the better use do autistic people have of their ToMs. Daniella’s particularly advanced cognitive empathy is atypical for autism and the only deficit in ToM that she herself (subjectively) experiences is her complete inability to respond interactively to flirtation. (She has been diagnosed twice with autism so the diagnosis is not in doubt.) While all autistic peoples have deficits in their ToMs do som autists also have “surpluses” in their ToMs, meaning that they have in some respects more advanced ToMs than neurotypicals.
Daniella is an empathetic animal liberationist and cannot watch Holocaust movies without crying hysterically. Daniella is easily moved to tears when experiencing compassion or something else that she is moved by. While many of those on the Dark Triad derive pleasure from harming others, Daniella derives pleasure from helping others. It is notable that neither Daniella nor her mother feels pity, yet are rationally compassionate. However, Daniella has only contempt for pity which typically is compassion without prior experience, ethics and reason. For Daniella does not compassion make sense unless it is anchored in prior experience, reason and ethics. Daniella’s mother has a different rationale for opposing pity in claiming that it is condescending. Daniella’s mother’s female dizygothic twin is also incapable of pity, opposes pity and does not understand why anyone would feel pity. Daniella does not see this autistic absence as a deficit in her ToM (although it technically is) as Daniella is highly rationally compassionate (as are her mother and aunt) as she views this absence as a strength only because she is much less amenable to moralistic manipulation. Similar to those on the Dark Triad but due to her ADHD does Daniella get a kick out of exercise of power (because of temporary infusion of dopamine), albeit only in the realm of international politics. As comparable to persons on the Dark Triad does Daniella leverage her advanced ability to understand how others think for power purposes although not so in personal life (she did so however as a child in close cooperation with her mother to overcome bullying in 4th grade in elementary school) and strictly so in the realm of international politics.
Daniella is sensorially oversensitive to light and sound due to her autism and thus does become easily exhausted due to sensory overload, i.e. experiences autistic fatigue. Like so many other autistic people, Daniella only has energy and focus for performing one major mission per day aside from issues which she deals with through hyperfocus. Because of her ADHD Daniella is completely disorganized in daily life, although she is hyperfocused on things that truly interests her. Due to her ADHD, Daniella finds it quite difficult to focus on reading entire printed books as she is distracted by the fibers in the paper, but she can read chapters in e-books if she finds them interesting enough. Daniella effectively ceased reading books at age 15 (she read prolifically up until that age) and has since then read relatively few books and thus mostly derived her knowledge from the Internet. Daniella has a short attention span except when hyperfocused on something that genuinely interests her and hyperfocus is on and this is due to her ADHD. Daniella has excellent self-confidence (she scored 30/30 on the Rosenberg Self-Esteem Scale) yet is plagued by intermittent self-doubt which is rather painful due to the persistent nature of the doubts.
Because of her ADHD, Daniella has great difficulty following instructions such as acting upon received directions in the street or cooking according to a food recipe, although she was able to cook according to recipe as a child. Daniella is easily distracted because of her ADHD. Daniella finds it very difficult to learn things that she is not interested in and this is due to her ADHD and autism. As a child she almost never did any homework as she found this quite painful, again due to her ADHD. At the same time does Daniella due to her autism have encyclopedic memory. As a child she was an autistic “little professor” type of child. Daniella, unlike most high-functioning autistics, is not particularly interested in details (other than pivotal ones) but rather in the biggest possible picture although she is indeed excellent at remembering “pivotal details”. In late 2021 and due to her ADHD did she lose the ability to concentrate on watching movies and television series although she strangely regained that ability in August 2022. Due to her ADHD, Daniella suffers from low motivation for initiating tasks that don’t particularly interest her and she also procrastinates with regard to such tasks.
Autistic people are known to write differently from neurotypicals and that is certainly true of Daniella’s writings. What characterizes Daniella’s writing? This is somewhat difficult to pinpoint but the most poignant feature is that it is extremely persuasive to whom it is addressed. Daniella suffers from writing anxiety and when a few days has passed and she has not written a blog post does she fears that she will not ever have geopolitical ideas again, alternatively does she bizarrely fear that there would be no more need for her geopolitical ideas which would actually be an extremely happy scenario for Israel.
Because of her ADHD Daniella has a low tolerance for boredom which sometimes makes it frustrating when she has no ideas for writing. As a relatively young person at the turn of the millennium was Daniella’s dream to become a neoconservative intellectual and she is living the dream in self-actualization beyond even her wildest dreams two decades ago in sometimes having an astounding influence over US foreign policy and sometimes over the foreign policies of other governments.
Daniella has due to her ADHD trouble copying with stress and is stressed out by small things in everyday life but only rarely in her diplomatic efforts. Due to her ADHD, Daniella finds it very stressful to wait for her turn or for a set time. Daniella is afflicted with time-blindness due to her ADHD which means that she is fleeting in an indeterminate time-sea and is then stressed out when the time is up. Because of her ADHD, Daniella has poor time management skills. Atypical for autistic people, Daniella is stressed out by routines and set times. Daniella is endowed with a form of synesthesia which in her case means that she either experiences introjected feelings of others in public space as black dots or as the color gray. Daniella is unaware how unique this is but she has one odor in her left armpit and quite another odor in her right armpit. Daniella is diagnosed with an unspecified sleeping disorder with narcolepsy and insomnia. This means that not only does she lack a daily sleeping cycle but suffers from intermittent sleep attacks (a key feature of narcolepsy) most of which are false and hence the insomnia as she becomes brisk again after trying to fall asleep for a minute or so. Some of the sleep attacks are genuine and make her instantly fall asleep after lying down.
Daniella has a disability pension from the Swedish government augmented by a monthly housing benefit, the latter which pays 90% or her rent, something which combined practically speaking guarantees her intellectual independence. Daniella lives in a two-room apartment with a kitchenette and a patio as part of a staffed group home for people with neuropsychiatric disabilities with normal to high IQ (there are 5 apartments for single people in the group home) and she is served delicious hot vegan food twice a day in addition to vegan breakfast and vegan evening meal. The group home is run according to Swedish disability rights legislation by the local municipality and is heavily subsidized. This includes the cost for the for the meals for which she does not pay in full. Daniella also has regional government funded free dental care due to her autism. Non-dental health care is funded by each regional government for all in Sweden through a regional income tax (it varies in the range of 10-13% depending on the region). Daniella also has access to a heavily subsidized regional government disability transport service due to her autism. Daniella has a personal fiduciary appointed by the court who takes care of paying her bills on her behalf and defends her personal interests. Daniella is visited at home every 30 days by a nurse who gives her an injection with antipsychotic medication and makes sure that she is well. Daniella is well taken care of in Sweden but nevertheless longs for Zion.
Daniella cares deeply about her friends and is always trying to solve their problems. Unlike the stereotype of autistic people as introverts, Daniella is quite extroverted and generally socially competent and is unlike many autistic people quite good at reading others in non-romantic and non-sexual contexts. Daniella finds it psychologically challenging to contact people on social media, including those whom she previously knows and this also due to her autism. Daniella is highly verbal and likes to converse. However, Daniella finds it psychologically challenging to keep secrets and this is due to her autism. Like many autistic people Daniella has a problem with eye contact, in Daniella’s case specifically a lack of understanding when and how prolonged eye contact becomes seductive and Daniella therefore tends to prematurely interrupt eye contact in order to avoid unintentionally seductive behavior.
As a child did Daniella continue to read words letter-by-letter until second grade when her primary school mother used the evenings to teach her to read full words in Swedish. Daniella had no problem learning to read English, French and Italian since she already knew how to read the Latin alphabet although her understanding of Italian and French is very limited despite for years having studied those languages at school. Daniella still reads words letter-by-letter in Hebrew although she learned to recognize many full words in Hebrew, particularly those that are part of the main daily and Shabbat (Sabbath) prayers in the Siddur (Hebrew prayer book). Daniella speaks simple Hebrew with a limited vocabulary in having completed the third semester in immigrant Hebrew study but peculiarly enough does not understand much when native Hebrew speakers speak to her in Hebrew. Also, she has not spoken much Hebrew since she left Israel in 1997 and so she has partially “forgotten” the language, much of which has become passive vocabulary. Furthermore, while in school Daniella showed clear signs of dyscalculia in consistently making simple mathematical mistakes of the type 3+3=7 when making a more complex calculation in thus turning the outcome of the entire calculation incorrect. It would appear that those impairments are related to her autism.
Daniella however does not lack talent for learning languages as she learned to speak first Australian English, then British English and finally American English; all three entirely without a Swedish accent. Daniella learned Australian English from watching Australia’s “Neighbours” show as a teenager on television. Daniella picked up British English while listening to BBC World Service during the 1990 Gulf War. Daniella only learned American English after spending five days in the United States as a Jewish student leader guest of the American Jewish Committee (AJC) c. 2004.
Daniella has experienced a number of psychotic episodes, after which she completely lost her faith in God and became an atheist although she still loves Judaism. When Daniella is psychotic does she believe that she is God, the Messiah and the head of state of all countries. Daniella is an ex-Orthodox Jew and she still misses being religious but she just can’t believe anymore after her psychotic experiences. Daniella’s paternal grandfather committed suicide by jumping to his death from a mental hospital in Israel. The brother of Daniella’s maternal grandmother suffered from mental illness for decades. Daniella recovered from her most recent psychotic episode in 2019 after having been severely psychotic for three years (2016-2019) and mildly psychotic for at least an additional three years before that (2012-2015) and has since suffered from post-psychotic autistic burnout. After recovering Daniella almost lost her ability to speak and became very quiet and Daniella still is not as talkative as she normally is. Daniella suffers from fatigue due to her autistic burnout and spends her days in bed resting, browsing, streaming and blogging.
One common conception about autistic people is that they are unable to lie, manipulate and deceive. This is not true for Daniella who just hates to lie, manipulate and deceive but like those on the Dark Triad is naturally highly skilled and extremely persuasive at doing so. Daniella is highly conscientious in interpersonal relations and so lying, manipulating and deceiving causes her psychological hardship unless of course this is fully morally justified. Many people have the idea that it is somehow “dangerous” to be transparent about themselves, while Daniella believes that it is psychologically healthy and quite socially helpful to be optimally transparent about oneself. Similarly, does Daniella strongly believe that lying, manipulation and deception, although sometimes necessary and morally justified, must be kept to an absolute minimum in life.
Daniella, as a disabled person with dual Swedish and Israeli citizenship has remained in Sweden for decades despite wanting to live in Israel as the Israeli welfare state is much less generous than the Swedish one. Moving to Israel as a single person would throw her into deep poverty if she were to subside on an Israeli disability pension and the only potential employer in Israel for Daniella as a Jewish genius (nearly all Jewish geniuses in Israel are employed by the intelligence sector) is the Mossad and Daniella finds it very difficult and painful indeed to keep secrets and is partially unable to although not entirely so.
What is the issue with Daniella not being able to keep secrets? Daniella has an intense psychological need to “debrief” and talk about her “secrets” if suitable publicly such as in this bio or else confidently with a trusted person and no doubt that is deeply human but this is exacerbated by Daniella’s uber-honest autistic personality. Daniella would be able to work in intelligence and keep secrets if she had a trusted person to confide in which usually is the role of a handler but is sometimes a psychologist or even a friend or a spouse who is a fellow agent. Yet it cannot be disregarded that successfully keeping secrets causes Daniella psychological suffering to varying degrees unless she has someone to confide in.
Daniella failed in her university studies due to her difficulties in reading printed books as due to her ADHD she is distracted by the fibers in the paper of many printed books. She studied Arab studies, Comparative religion, Islamic studies and Law at Stockholm University and Gender studies at Linköping University and did a preparatory year at Bar-Ilan University. She also failed in menial work because she was considered too slow. In the winter of 1993-94 she worked at a McDonald’s restaurant in Stockholm but was fired after two months due to being too slow. When she studied Modern Hebrew in Israel in 1994 she lived and worked at Kibbutz Gal On in central Israel and worked part-time in the kibbutz factory but they were dissatisfied with her work and apparently for being too slow. This perceived, relative slowness is expressive of autistic slow motor skills. Since Daniella has no university degree and cannot do menial work, she is completely dependent on her disability pension and her housing benefit. While working in the intelligence world in theory would be ideal for Daniella (this is in practice her only possible employment option) this is problematic as it could compromise her independence as an intellectual and a writer. Furthermore, her difficulties in keeping secrets makes this an even more problematic option. However, Daniella would not be able to work regular office hours due to her highly irregular sleeping patterns although she could in principle work digitally on a distance from home. Daniella received exemptions from military service in both Sweden and Israel as this was years before her advanced cognitive skills were internationally discovered. Daniella once tried to learn how to drive but found it a dizzying experience and never tried again.
What are Daniella’s attitude towards children? Daniella is very good with children, likes children and also feels a strong obligation to procreate so as to transmit her hereditary genius to the next generation. However, Daniella is sensorially oversensitive to sound due to her autism and would therefore find it difficult to cope with screaming infants and loud toddlers although it is true that different individual young children are loud to different degrees with some being quite quiet.
How is Daniella’s personality? The most common psychometric framework for studying personalities are the Big Five Personality Traits which are then subdivided into what are known as ‘facets’, i.e. personality subtraits.
Big Five personality traits in Daniella
Anxiety: Daniella sometimes experiences mild anxiety at home while intermittently experiencing mild anticipatory anxiety while outside her home.
Hostility: Daniella is almost never hostile to anyone in private life as Daniella almost never gets angry and this is a trait inherited from her mother. However, Daniella is on occasion quite hostile and at times extremely aggressive in her diplomatic advocacy.
Depression: Daniella has experienced post-psychotic depression and was also depressed after becoming traumatized in basic training in the IDF (Israel Defense Forces). Daniella can be depressed for more or less than an hour and this occurs perhaps once a month.
Self-Consciousness: Daniella has a high degree of private self-consciousness in being extremely well aware of herself. As regards public self-consciousness Daniella has little interest in how others view her but at least she is happy that others are not envious of her.
Impulsiveness: Daniella acts on her intuition when shopping and blogging (in her diplomatic advocacy) and her intuition does not fail her.
Vulnerability: Daniella is normally not vulnerable IRL but can be so post-psychosis. However Daniella suffers in online contexts only from what is informally known as “Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria” (RSD) and this is probably related to her ADHD, meaning that Daniella is often afraid of being rejected/abandoned while chatting online due to not feeling affirmed through introjection by means of emotional contagion and she also overreacts to public discussions online in that she is completely consumed by almost any public online discussion in which she is involved in needing to provide that perfect rebuttal. Daniella is usually trying to please while chatting online in order so as not trigger displeasure on the other side. Public online discussions trigger Daniella’s brain extensively and she compulsively needs to come up with the perfect, comprehensive response. Daniella is also extremely sensitive to public online criticism and it would therefore not be suitable for her to become a public figure. This is quite peculiar because Daniella is quite thick-skinned IRL.
Irritability: Daniella is virtually never irritated.
Insecurity: Daniella experiences emotional security at home but frequently emotional insecurity in public space.
Emotionality: Daniella is friendly but otherwise not very emotional.
Warmth: Daniella is quite warm but not extremely warm.
Gregariousness: Daniella is not attracted to groups and group activities yet is highly social, mostly in activities of two.
Assertiveness: Daniella is extremely assertive and successfully so.
Activity: Daniella is active when hyperfocus is on but otherwise not.
Excitement-seeking: Daniella seeks mostly intellectual and sexual excitement.
Positive Emotions: Daniella mostly experiences positive emotions in the context of her diplomatic advocacy and explorative intellectual activities.
Sociability: Daniella is sociable at a normal level.
Unrestraint: Daniella is a person who acts spontaneously and intuitively, yet within reason.
Activity-Adventurousness: Daniella is intellectually adventurous and adventurous in her diplomatic advocacy yet not in her private life.
III. OPENNESS TO EXPERIENCE
Fantasy / Imagination-Creativity: Daniella’s fantasy/creativity/imagination appears mostly in two fields, 1) highly focused intellectual innovation/problem-solving/detection and 2) humor as she has a past of writing humoristic satirical political pornography in the French subversive revolutionary tradition.
Aesthetics: Daniella has advanced talent for dance, modern art and poetry but has so far shown little active appreciation for the arts although she enjoys passively listening to music.
Feelings: Daniella is moderately open to feelings.
Action: Daniella is extremely action-oriented in her diplomatic advocacy, but not elsewhere in life.
Ideas: Daniella is highly critical of ideas.
Values: Daniella challenges values that are not consistent with the facts.
Intellect: Daniella has a highly agile intellect and although typically extremely critical of thoughts of others, does she of course on occasion take inspiration from published insights of others. Daniella has the experience already since before commencing primary school as an intellectually precocious child of having won almost every argument that she engages in, including with teachers at university. This is because Daniella is more logical than every other person that she has held a discussion with. While Daniella listens carefully to views of others, does she in practice usually not hold those in high regard due her having superior logical and other intellectual faculties.
Perceptiveness: Daniella is extremely perceptive.
Trust: Daniella nearly always trusts others IRL unlike in geopolitics, yet is not naive.
Straightforwardness: Daniella is straightforward in social relations but is the opposite of straightforward when it comes to romance and sexuality.
Altruism: Daniella is highly altruistic, albeit not naively so.
Compliance: Daniella is extremely compliant with the wishes of others and is virtually always happy to be of help within the bounds of reason.
Modesty: Daniella is a modest person although not self-depreciating.
Tender-mindedness: Daniella is tender-minded at a normal level.
Affection: Daniella is affectionate to a normal degree.
Gentleness: Daniella is highly gentle.
Generosity: Daniella is generous in helping Israel and Israel’s allies though diplomatic advocacy without enumeration but rarely provides gifts and does not give to charity.
Modesty-Humility: Daniella is the opposite of humble in her diplomatic advocacy as she is extremely ambitious and the only thing that holds her back is lack of inspiration.
Competence: Daniella is extremely competent at her diplomatic advocacy.
Dutifulness: Daniella is almost not dutiful at all, even her diplomatic advocacy is not motivated by duty but rather by the passion of advancing the interests of the State of Israel and by extension overlapping interests of Israel’s strategic allies. However, Daniella experiences a sense of duty to protect the Kurds and not only because it serves Israel’s and America’s interests which it certainly does. This is 1) because Israel’s traditional role is to protect and support the Kurds, 2) because most Kurds are strongly pro-Israel, 4) because a third of all Kurds are Median Jews (Alawites, Alevis, Yarsanis and Yezidis) and 5) because of millennia of strong ties between the two peoples. Daniella also feels obliged to procreate so as to transmit her hereditary genius to the next generation. However, passion always trumps duty and Daniella’s primary loyalty is to the Jewish nation and its nation state, although of course she is also a loyal Swedish citizen.
Achievement-striving: Daniella is extremely ambitious in her diplomatic advocacy and intellectual exploration but not otherwise.
Self-discipline: Daniella has no self-discipline (i.e. the ability to intentionally reshape oneself), yet has no vices other than some issues with procrastination and compensates for the lack of self-discipline with hyperfocus.
Deliberation: Daniella rarely engages in political deliberation as she virtually always makes intuitive decisions in her diplomatic advocacy.
Orderly/Order: Daniella is not orderly at all.
Decisiveness-Consistency: Daniella scores extremely high, particularly in her diplomatic advocacy.
Reliability: Daniella is moderately reliable because ultimately she typically does not hold views of others in very high regard.
Industriousness: Daniella is diligent in intellectual endeavors involving hyperfocus, including diplomatic advocacy.
As an autistic person is Daniella very highly sincere and very honest, she only very rarely tells lies in private life; is skeptical of rhetoric which she rarely uses and which she considers at best a tool for manipulation and at worst a vehicle for disinformation and she never deliberately misinforms or manipulates in her diplomatic advocacy. Daniella’s experience is that very strictly telling the truth from the perspective and interests of the addressee is the very best communication policy. Daniella is very unselfish and experiences severe difficulties in pursuing her own personal interests such as promoting her own economic interests. While it is true that Daniella has achieved an extreme degree of highly realistic self-awareness, Daniella is a modest person who is not interested in publicity, public attention or public recognition for her personal achievements.
Research is inconsistent as to whether autistics also have deficits in affective empathy. Some studies show that autistic people vary greatly in their respective levels of affective empathy. Other studies indicate that autistic people empathize with emotions of positive valence but not with emotions of negative valence. People on the Dark Triad in contrast have low affective empathy and normal cognitive empathy. It was previously believed that psychopaths lack empathy altogether but this has been debunked by later research.
Daniella has a very poor emotional life with very little emotion and when it rarely occurs is it usually low-intensive in nature but she does not suffer from alexithymia (subclinical deficiency in understanding, processing or describing emotions) other than romantic and sexual emotions as Daniella has no problem with identifying and describing non-sexual and non-romantic emotions whether her own or those of others. Furthermore, Daniella suffers neither from anhedonia (inability to feel pleasure) nor from apathy or reduced affect display (condition of reduced emotional reactivity). However, Daniella does experience the introjection of emotions of others, although usually at a low level of intensity. Daniella knows this because she experiences more emotions in the company of others than alone when she is typically almost void of emotions. What is the origin of Daniella’s weak experience of emotion? Since this condition is not hitherto known to science, the only explanation is that this is a key feature of Daniella’s hereditary genius. This is extremely conducive to superlogical thinking since Daniella is thus not confused by intrusive emotions. Furthermore, although Daniella is a calculating geopolitician, Daniella is no monster and those on the Dark Triad do have normal emotions and are certainly not weak in emotions like Daniella albeit they lack certain emotions such as remorse which Daniella certainly does have.
However, Daniella experiences very strong rational empathic concern for others in easily becoming teary eyed when watching emotionally touching filmed experiences of others. Witnessing extreme suffering such as in Holocaust films and documentaries about the Animal Industry elicits hysterical crying in Daniella. Daniella thus experiences strong anxiety and discomfort in response to witnessing extreme suffering in others. Daniella once fully legally visited a mink farm as part of an official delegation from Sweden’s largest animal rights organization (Djurens Rätt) and cried when witnessing the suffering of the minks incarcerated in small cages. The cruel incarceration led to horrible stereotypical behaviors in the minks. It may thus be concluded that although Daniella normally does not experience much emotion, she is certainly capable of experiencing strong emotions. There is however one context where Daniella always experiences strong emotion and that is while in forests. Biologists have documented that plants such as trees have feelings and nerves although they lack cognitive centers to experience those feelings. However, we as animals can apparently introject those feelings (most people report feeling refreshed after walking in forests) and Daniella strongly does introject emotions from trees.
- Gender and Attraction
Daniella’s most psychologically distressing disability is that due to her autism, she does not understand flirtation but instead reacts with confusion. (Daniella thinks: “How do I know if she is really interested in me?”) This is apparently both due to a deficit in ToM (Theory of Mind) affecting her cognitive empathy and probably a similar deficit partially affecting her affective empathy.
As a proud lesbian ex-Orthodox Jew is Daniella only interested in halakhically Jewish women who have not converted to religious imperialism. Daniella is interested in online meeting a Jewish woman living in Israel as she is interested in returning to Israel. Daniella loves and is open to women of all Jewish ethnicities but has a personal (racial-sexual) preference for Mizrahi Jewish women and in particular Yemenite Jewish women.
What are Daniella’s other preferences in a woman? Daniella values a female partner also being an intellectual secular “chavruta” in being intelligent, intellectually curious and having her own intellectual interests. Finding international affairs interesting is an absolute requirement. Also Daniella would like someone who is of reproductive age, preferably without children, not because Daniella is not well disposed towards children who are not her own – she certainly is – but because Daniella is interested in finding a woman who would be interested in giving birth to 3-4 children or more in a marriage with Daniella. Daniella would like to find someone who is similar to herself in being warm, altruistic and intellectual. Daniella’s ultimate dream (which is perhaps unattainable) would be to find a fellow hereditary (non-artistic) genius or at least someone with those genes who comes from a family with hereditary (non-artistic) geniuses. Daniella is looking for a woman who is active and proactive in bed rather than passive and submissive. Daniella likes and appreciates women who know what they want and know how to get it and don’t take a no for a no. It is important to understand that when Daniella says ‘no’ to a woman she rarely means it, although she sometimes does, particularly with regard to unsightly women.
Daniella is a nasophile in finding women with crooked noses particularly attractive. Daniella does not find noses beautiful or even sexy but she finds women with crooked noses as particularly attractive. Nasophilia is one of a number of existing partialisms where typically attraction to a certain part of the body is as strong or stronger as to genitalia.
Daniella strongly prefers if a prospective female partner is vegan or at least is willing to eat vegan food at home but this is not an absolute requirement. This is both a practical issue of not having to cook separate foods as well as an issue of having shared values. For Daniella, veganism is the ethical foundation in life. A non-vegan human is simply not a moral person and therefore lacks moral integrity although Daniella respects non-vegans as morally weak human beings. Daniella has been an ethical vegan since 1997. Daniella does not drink, smoke or use recreational drugs and is not interested in women who do other than consuming kiddush wine (sabbath ritual wine).
Unlike many autistic people Daniella is socially competent and good at reading others (other than sexually and romantically) and with the exception of flirtation knows intuitively how to socially interact IRL. Many autistic people find social media easier as they are not socially expected to read others but for Daniella is the reverse true. Daniella is confident IRL with its (to her) obvious social conventions but is much less confident in the online world where social conventions are much less apparent to her. Daniella finds it stressful and disconcerting to interact with others online without being able to read them IRL. Despite Daniella’s difficulties with social media, Daniella prefers getting to know someone for romance online before meeting her IRL due to the advantage provided in being able to delay Daniella’s responses and thus avoiding inadvertently rejecting someone due to misunderstandings because of not understanding flirtation. Daniella has a long history of inadvertently by misunderstanding rejecting women who are interested in her.
Daniella is a trans woman and would certainly have preferred to have been born in a cis-female body, yet does not want to undergo the multiple-years process leading to gender affirmation surgery due to the immense inconvenience involved to her as a neuropsychiatrically disabled person with the entire process. If the process was shorter and easier would she however want to undergo gender affirmation surgery. As Daniella currently does not experience gender dysphoria other than desiring labial rubbing rather than coitus would Daniella also not clinically speaking qualify for gender affirmation surgery.
Daniella has for most of her life been severely confused about her sexuality. On the one hand does she desire erotic intimacy (including genital rubbing which is not very practical while having phallus and testicles) with women but is mentally (but not physically) somewhat uncomfortable with the idea of sexually penetrating women. This is because at her core as a trans woman she is a lesbian and would be far more comfortable with having vagina and labia and performing genital rubbing with another woman rather than penetrating her. While Daniella does experience only mild sexual attraction combined with strong aesthetic attraction towards many female strangers, Daniella is not easily turned on. Situations of casual sex produce at best semi-erection and Daniella needs to form a strong emotional bond in order to be turned on and to be seriously sexually aroused by a physically present sexually attractive person. While not being demisexual does Daniella in this respect resemble demisexuals who do not experience sexual attraction until they form a strong emotional bond with a person. Daniella is in practice able to have sex only once a day since the second time becomes quite painful, i.e. if she ejaculated the first time, and this is normal and not pathological according to a physician whom she consulted. Daniella formerly suffered from phobia for intercourse (coitophobia), phobia for kissing (philemaphobia) and phobia for female body hair (trichophobia). However, since being medicated with a daily dose of 20 mg Escitalopram have those phobias completely disappeared.
Daniella is oversensitive to being caressed during sex and reacts with trembling. Daniella is graysexual, i.e. belongs to the spectrum between allosexuality and asexuality with certain similarities to demisexuals. However, it is not difficult for Daniella to develop a strong emotional bond with someone, particularly if the person is aesthetically attractive. Daniella could possibly learn to appreciate coitus if she developed a romantic relationship with someone that she is strongly sexually attracted towards, this is a big unknown as Daniella has never performed coitus with someone whom she was strongly sexually attracted towards.
Daniella’s lack of emotions is generally a strength and not a disability other than in romantic and sexual contexts. This inhibits her from engaging in mutually strong emotional contagion. On the one hand does Daniella not in a strong way introject the emotions of the woman whom she meets, yet on the other hand does it also not work the other way since there is not much for the woman to emotionally introject from Daniella. Furthermore, Daniella typically does not have much emotions while in bed with a woman due to not having a strong emotional bond with her.
Daniella finds most pornography repulsive and tasteless but is turned on by pornography with artistic (literary or cineastic) qualities irrespective of subgenre of sexual specialization. Daniella has in her life had almost no sexual fantasies (at present none) and would certainly not find it sexually arousing to realize those that she had unless with someone whom she has developed a very close emotional bond with. The same is true with pornographic scenarios which Daniella is turned on by. Daniella is most prominently turned on by bisexual erotic stories (man-woman, woman-woman and man-man) featuring group sex. Daniella has never been turned on by any gay cineastic porn although she has not watched much gay porn and so has perhaps not yet encountered quality gay porn.
While generally being lesbian in terms of which humans she is sexually attracted to, she has in recent years become bisexual with respect to persons from the greater Middle East (more specifically she is moderately aesthetically and sometimes sexually attracted to young Middle Eastern men) and this is a racial sexual preference as she has a general (although not exclusive) racial-sexual preference for persons from the greater Middle East. Furthermore, she is now in a process of personal transition of becoming increasingly bisexual. However, she is certainly lesbian in the sense that she is only interested in a committed relationship with a fellow woman, i.e. Daniella is unequivocally lesbian in her romantic orientation. At present Daniella is not particularly interested in sex (other than masturbation with erotic literature) and is primarily looking for a partner to share life with but this temporary allosexual disinterest may likely change if she finds the right woman to bond and build a strong emotional connection with, including romance.
How does Daniella know whether her level of experience of attraction is mild, moderate or strong? This is both an empirical and comparative problem since it is difficult to know to what degrees others experience attraction. However, Daniella knows that she experiences mild sexual attraction towards women whom she does not know, moderate sexual attraction towards women whom she is acquainted with and that she in one single case experienced strong sexual attraction towards a woman with whom she had formed a strong emotional bond. She furthermore knows that she experiences strong aesthetic attraction towards women but only moderate aesthetic attraction towards young Middle Eastern men.
Daniella’s sexual fantasies have in recent years exclusively focused on men and has been devoted to being anally and orally penetrated while wearing women’s clothes as well as kissing and being vaginally penetrated after having fully undergone gender affirmative surgery.
What should a woman interested in Daniella be cognizant of? It is essential to first be friends online before commencing a video chatting relationship and meeting IRL is yet further down the road. The first time they meet IRL should be for at most a weekend (Daniella is interested in meeting a Jewish woman living in Israel with an eye on Daniella returning to Israel) and the second time would be a social experiment of living together in Israel for at most a month without sex aimed at building a strong emotional bond. If Daniella feels strong sexual attraction towards the woman at the end of the month has the experiment succeeded and the relationship can become permanent, especially if there is also romance. Just as for demisexuals is it essential to develop a close emotional bond. These are the effective rules of the game because Daniella is genuinely hard to get and not because Daniella wants so but simply because that’s the way she is. This is all about building a relationship involving a close emotional bond and avoiding inadvertent rejection by Daniella. Since Daniella’s sexual profile is somewhat similar to demisexuals does not the theory of the danger of so-called friendzoning apply. On the contrary, “friendzoning” is essential for the stage of Daniella developing moderate sexual attraction for a woman. Indeed, developing strong sexual attraction will require living together for weeks up to a month without sex. Daniella is a straightforward person in terms of personality but certainly not sexually or romantically so. That is the reality and this is certainly not a reality that Daniella appreciates (far from that as it is extremely cumbersome) but this is the way it is.
Daniella’s rejection behavior is virtually the norm among persons assigned female at birth irrespective of sexual orientation. It does not however appear to be common among persons assigned male at birth. However, if we just for a moment ignore that Daniella was born with a penis then Daniella’s rejection behavior is neither strange nor mysterious, just extremely female on the female-male spectrum in this respect. What is perhaps absolutely unique about Daniella is the large complex of multiple psychological factors complicating her romantic and sexual behavior. This however makes it difficult to meet someone in real life but online communication offers time for retrospection to prevent undue rejection. No psychoanalytic explanation is required here since this is clearly genetic behavior. In 2016-2019 Daniella was quite psychotic and this for some reason caused her to become more liberated sexually and gender-wise. She dressed up in women’s fashion with wig and makeup and started hitting on women everywhere in public space and during those years she hugged perhaps a thousand women with the goal of becoming a sexually liberated lesbian. Did the psychosis lift sexual repression? Yes, it did to a degree and sexual repression is definitely a factor that cannot be ignored but the genetics cannot be ignored either as Daniella hitting en masse on women in public space certainly did not lead to sexual relationships.
Daniella is not interested in sex with a woman prior to developing a strong emotional bond because she knows how empty and shallow sex becomes without having first developed a strong emotional bond. Daniella is yet to come to terms with her developing transition to bisexuality. It appears that she needs to dress up as a woman and enact hyper-feminine female gender with a sexual bottom position as it is known in the Arab world in order to have sex with an unfamiliar man. Daniella cannot imagine having sex with an unfamiliar man while wearing male clothes. The second possibility would be bisexual group sex but that would require first having a female partner to participate with whom Daniella has a strong emotional bond. A third possibility would be sex with a man with some degree of emotional connection with Daniella, not necessarily very close and here wearing men’s clothes would not be an obstacle. A very strong emotional bond thus does not appear to be necessary in order to have sex with a man.
It is important to understand that aesthetic attraction is pivotal when trying to attract Daniella because this compensates for the low sexual attraction that she experiences to unfamiliar women. Of course, the closer the relationship the less important aesthetic attraction becomes but it must be emphasized how important it is initially. E.g. is Daniella turned on by makeup and tightly fitting clothes. Of course, aesthetic attraction is superficial but it is nevertheless real.
Daniella is diagnosed with gender dysphoria. Daniella has experienced varying degrees of gender dysphoria during her life, including often none. Although Daniella identifies as female does she at present not experience any distress as a result of this other than wanting labial rubbing (which is not possible without gender affirmation surgery) rather than coitus. Daniella played with dolls as a child and had her own homemade dollhouse.
Androgenic gynophiles have generally much more sexual needs than gynogenic androphiles and so there is typically a disparity in so-called heterosexual relationships because one party wants substantially more sex than the other party. The reason is that polygyny and not monogamy is the natural normative condition for humanity. Another truth is that few if any humans are exclusively homosexual or exclusively heterosexual. Yet another truth is that pansexuality to varying statistical degrees with of course preferences in various directions is the natural condition. We are socially and culturally conditioned to believe that certain looks and body types are especially attractive and this varies greatly between cultures and between generations. Daniella rarely notices whether a woman is feminine or masculine yet has a rather conventional view of what is attractive in women as she is strongly attracted by aesthetic atributes such as makeup, hairstyles and fashion clothes. Most androgenic gynophiles would not admit that they desire polygyny but of course they do and that is generally true. Daniella believes that one way or another she should as an hereditary genius reproduce optimally.
Daniella was born in Sweden to a Romanian-born synagogue-attending Jewish father and a secular Lutheran Swedish mother. Daniella converted to Judaism as a young adult. Daniella first underwent a Conservative conversion in Stockholm which was recognized as valid by the Modern Orthodox rabbi of Stockholm as Daniella became Orthodox and observant. Daniella subsequently underwent an Ultra-Orthodox giyur lechumra (literally “strict conversion”) at the Chief Rabbinate in Jerusalem. Daniella’s years as Orthodox in Israel and Sweden were the best years in her life but due to her experience of psychosis she completely lost her faith and became an atheist.
Why does Daniella want a relationship with a woman who is a halakhically Jewish? Daniella is not interested in an Orthodox wedding since she has long since left religion and furthermore identifies as transfeminine so would be uncomfortable to play the role of the groom but she is concerned that her children be recognized as Jewish. Why so? For Daniella is her own mixed ancestry as being born from a non-Jewish mother and a Jewish father profoundly traumatic. Daniella wants her children to grow up in Israel since she realizes that raising Jewish children in the Diaspora outside Orthodoxy is a recipe for assimilation and intermarriage in the next generation. Daniella wants halakhically Jewish children because she doesn’t want her children to experience her own trauma of having a question mark over her own Jewish identity and that can only be attained through a halakhically Jewish biological mother. Daniella could not under any circumstance marry or be the partner of someone belonging to a different religion.
Daniella’s paternal grandparents (Herman and Aneta Bartfeld) immigrated to Israel in 1948 and Daniella has two Israeli cousins, Amos Ron and Gadi Singer. Daniella’s journalist father Avram Bartfeld (a Holocaust survivor) changed his name to Andrei Bart in Communist Romania. Daniella’s father lost his job as the managing editor of a major newspaper in Romania after having applied for permission to immigrate to Israel and was as many other Romanian Jews later allowed to emigrate after the US government paid the Romanian regime to let Romanian Jews leave for Israel. Daniella’s late father immigrated to Sweden in 1968 after two years as stateless in Italy together with Daniella’s Romanian-born half-brother after having declined to immigrate to Israel due to a feud with an Israeli rabbi in a Jewish Agency transitory refugee camp in southern Italy and who told him not to smoke on Shabbat (the Sabbath), something which infuriated Daniella’s father and caused him to hitchhike to Rome together with his son. Although Daniella’s legal name is Daniel Bart, does she use the online name Daniella Bartfeld due to being transgender and being more comfortable with her family name although she would change to a Hebrew surname if she returned to Israel. (Bartfeld is the German name of the Slovak city of Bardejov and is also an Ashkenazi Jewish surname.) Everyone calls her Daniella. Daniella’s pronouns are ‘she’ and ‘her’. Daniella used to wear women’s clothes daily with makeup and a pink wig but no longer does so since 2019 due to suffering from burnout.
You have now read Daniella’s constantly evolving psychological biography which she commenced writing, editing and publishing on February 16, 2022 and has been growing ever since. Daniella believes that all adult humans should be encouraged to write their own psychological biography and preferably as early as possible in life. When Daniella commenced writing her psychological biography did she believe that she knew herself well but has since come to learn so much about herself that she did not have full awareness of. Daniella believes that junior high school students should all be enabled to write their own psychological biographies so as to enable them to make better life choices.
Note: Daniella is in cooperation with her local psychiatric clinic planning to soon end taking antipsychotic medication since she has been symptom-free for almost four years now and has been taking the lowest possible dose already for a year and a half. Daniella is further down the line planning to request medication for narcolepsy and ADHD.